Right this very moment I am struggling with my fibromyalgia and the effects it has on my dreams for my writing career. My heart, soul, and mind are overflowing with ideas, inspiration, and determination to reach my goals. Still, my body is weak, and the fibro is winning today. I have so much to write, so much to share, and so much to do. But fibromyalgia has my body so sore and worn that I am typing this with only 3 fingers. The strength and will of my hands left me yesterday because of this enemy within.
In time, I know the blunt of my fibromyalgia will decide to migrate on to another part of my body and most of the strength will return to my hands. It always does. And I will be back to typing fast and easily at my keyboard. In the meantime, I simply need to put the doubts and fears away and to continue pushing through as best I can.
My late father always loved to remind me that defeat doesn’t last very long if we stay strong and never give up. But if we stay down and feel sorry for ourselves for too long, defeat will take root and make it harder and harder for us to throw it off our backs. Some people might call it foolishness or stupidity, but I will keep bouncing right back, no matter how many times my chronic illness knocks me over. Struggling with fibro has gotten me this far. I’m not going to back down now!
This expresses just as I feel. I know that I am not supposed to look back and my boyfriend has never known me without my illness, but I get angry sometimes that I will never be able to dance with him, go to a concert, etc. And, we can never go somewhere for long. Yet, I know to be grateful to have even that much.
ReplyDeleteWay to stay strong.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're suffering but glad you are fighting on. Good on you!
ReplyDeleteStay strong!! My sister has fibromyaliga and she is like you... staying positive!!
ReplyDeleteGreat post!
Connie
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Stay strong! You can also get dictation software for days you really need it.
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