|My son at the park|
Dealing with a chronic illness can be one of the most difficult journeys in life. It can leave us feeling hopeless, discouraged, defeated, and shattered. Deciding how to plan for the rest of your life can seem impossible. Day-to-day life can be so chaotic and unpredictable on its own. So sometimes, we are left wondering how we can push on indefinitely.
Ultimately, it’s critical to not focus on our illness too directly. Yes, we need to familiarize ourselves with our condition because knowledge is the best medicine in the fight against our health issues. However, too much focus will only consume us and rob us of all the positives in our lives. Instead, we must find the inspiration and motivation to never quit fighting from the blessings in our lives.
One of my biggest sources of positivity and strength when my life seems to be falling in on me is my kids. When I feel like a failure they remind me that I’m a wonderful mother. When loneliness and grief over the life I’ve lost threatens to take over they always seem to there with a hug, kiss, or smile when I need it the most. When I feel like I’m too tired to press on anymore they give me purpose and determination once more.
Seeing the love in their eyes and watching them try to be just like me, I can clearly see that they look up to me and think I’m invincible. Little do they know that they are the main reason why I am a fibromyalgia warrior. They are the heart of my daily battles with my own body. And they keep me bouncing back, rearing and ready to give it a try another day.
I have other people and things that strengthen me as well (i.e., my fiancé, my faith in God, my creativity), but my children were the ones that originally made it clear that I could never, EVER accept defeat. I was a single mother at the time, so I knew that my children’s wellbeing depended on me and me alone. No matter how bad I felt I promised myself that I would never let them down or quit being there for them!
Where do you find your motivation and inspiration to continue your daily struggle with chronic illness?